Monkey Weekend!!!!

It's finally monkey weekend again!!!  This is the awesomeness that occurs everyother weekend when my husband's 2 year old daughter visits. May I say these are the bestest weekends I know.

The only downfall I see is that we are let down and hurt everytime she goes home. We are currently going round and round with her mother so no further details there... I think we are vastly lucky because we got her first steps, her first birthday, her first christmas, and her first dog.(well cash is like a stuffed toy but...) For a father who doesn't even have standard time share, these are huge mile-stones to have. My husband and I have little to look forward to(well cod:mw3 but that doesn't count) except monkey weekends. When my little brenana(no not a typo) comes running up the drive-way. I know my family loves this child more than life and just cause she's my step, they treat her no different than blood.

Just think about it...

Ok. So picture me sitting on the edge of my bed with a laptop on a tv table writing this. It could explain alot....

First and fore most, I want all of you to understand. My husband and I live with HIS mother and step-father. Don't get me wrong I love my in-laws, but they are not my parents. I am not used to the ways of life with this new family. I have gotten my feelings hurt, been upset, and cried more times in the last 6 months than I have in my whole life. It's like every day is a new challenge. I am wife number 3 to my husband. Even though I've known him since middle school. I am very happy in my marriage, I just wonder if this would be easier if we were alone.

Alone.ALONE...

What a concept. Alone. I don't know if that is actually possible in this economy. When my husband and I started seeing each other, I was living alone and working full time. So was he.  I had just bought a new car and was good all by myself. So was he. So was he. I had just gotten over a bad relationship. So had he. Then the bottom fell out and I was down-sized and living on unemployment. So was he. Hmmm. Kinda sounds like we were in the same place, huh?!? Now we are married, he works a low scale union job, I'm unemployed(still), and we do what he have to to pay bills, child support, and take care of his 2 year daughter. We literally have about $125 a month after the bills.

Enough. I will not do this senseless drivel a moment longer. Even if no one is reading this, I refuse to have a pity party. I think I need to go have a little cake or something. All this low carb has gotten to me...

See y'all later! Off to Cake Wrecks, for some much needed appetite suppressant!!!

ANGRY!!!!!!!!?!?!?!?

URGHGHGH!!!!!!! I am so ANGRY!!! I wrote an entire post about this awful movie I was watching. And Blogger made me loose it!!!! I was frickin' eloquent and this pos program made me lose it. I'm sorry even though I know no one follows this blog. But I have no idea where the post went other than this....
"An adaption of "The Wizard of Oz" that tries to capture the essence of the African American experience."

This is the other thing that was listed on the page when I tried to post. And it was the one thing that I didn't even write. So there was a huge fight with the hubby yesterday when he got home from work. It's probably in the best interest if my marriage that the post was lost, venting as it was... I don't think it was 100% the best thing to do. Especially since he specifically asked me not to put any thing personal on here, Yeah like that's gonna happen....

OK OK I guess since I may want to stay married for another 6 months, I'll leave the fight from yesterday off here. So how bout the Jaguars last night. They actually played like a real team and did something other than losing. Glad to see fellow EHS alum Rashean Mathis get on it. Even though my husband(who went to Scandleweed) says that he's too scared to wrap up on the guys that are too big for him. Hmmm I'd like to think that hubby is just jealous.... but he's a member of Steeler Nation.

What do you expect? After all, these are the Adventures of a (kinda)Newly-Wed....

Wow it's been THAT long???!?!

Ok ok. I know it's been over 6 months since my last post. And since I have such a huge following, everyone really missed me. Well guess what? I had a job. I got the call to start a few days after the wedding. And I have already been laid off.... I know what crap???!?
     Anywho....

I guess I should let everyone know that there's more to come and I will be on (hopefully) daily. Please remember that I have been married for 6 months. This means we're out of the uh oh phase and into the "we don't see each other the same way or enough" phase. It's not like we haven't known each other for about oh, 20 YEARS. But ladies, I know oyu know how men are.... The MAN, that needs a mother.
 Stick around cause I guarantee the best is yet to come.*

* We are trying to have children......

It's Official!!!

  Well the wedding is over and I have survived my first day as a Mrs. The most challenging thing was trying to pick a gift for my neice's 7th birthday party today. Believe it or not, we actually agreed on what to get her the first time!! I am very greatful to all my friends and family that helped and came to the wedding. We are in awe of the tremendous show of love from you all!!
  Now down to business..  My new husband got a call to finally go back to work Friday. He goes to the hall (He's in the union) in the morning to get the paperwork for the new job. We were hopeing to have the week together to celebrate, but I think that him working is much more beneficial to the marriage. I start my new job on the 25th and will be work clothes shopping with my Mother-in-Law this week. I really am very blessed to have in-laws that actually like me. I know this is not a common occurance, but hey Guess I lucked out...
   I guess I should get off here as I think my hubby would like me to not be computing the night after the wedding...

Another day down....

  It's down to 12 days til the big day. Went shopping with my almost mother in law today. Got an outfit to wear to the rehersal. Words cannot describe how lucky I feel that we get along so well. Finally getting the last things in order for the wedding. One downer is aparently spanx do not run by the sizing on the package. So it's back to the store tomorrow for another pair. Hmmm maybe I shouldn't try to hide the thighs as my dress has the same diameter skirt as a blimp.... I guess it's a good thing when the big stuff goes right the first time and the little stuff is where the issues are?
   As I sit here watching the man play modern warfare 2 for the millionth time, my mind wanders. Will I make a good wife? When will the kids come? Will I even be a good mother to them?!? Who knows. We have good role models in both my parent's and his. I know I'm constantly being asked if his past bothers me. My answer: Why should it? We all make mistakes don't we? I thought that was how we learned. OK Ok, he is a slightly slower learner, but when was the last time you saw a man get it the first time? And god forbid they ask for directions or use instructions. Such is life, I guess.
  Today the monkey went home. It's always awesome when she's here, but sometimes it's so tireing. Now for those about to say wait til you have children, my sister has 6 and I've helped with them all. I know this drill. She's 2 and that's all there is to it. The next time we have her will be the wedding weekend. Oh what fun!!
   Oooh sorry, distracted by the game. Why is it you can be so sucked into something you really have no care about. Is it just me? I find myself yelling at the jerks he's playing against and even helping by spotting for his snipeing.... Wow!! That's all I have to say about that.
  Guess it's time to say goodnight. These late nights are gonna leave me exhausted. I cry and get cranky when I'm over tired, and I REALLY don't want racoon eyes in wedding pictures my grandchildren may see in like 50 years.... OOOOOOH distracted again...

Almost there...

Well this is a new concept for me. Posting my life on the internet for anyone and everyone to see. I recently learned from a very special friend, that this is a great way to get things off your chest AND make sure people understand where you are coming from.... Please bear with me on all accounts. This is very new to me, both blogging and married life.


Ok with that said, It's 2 weeks til the wedding. We are both very stressed and excited. My mother, God love her, is the reason this wedding is able to be. Don't take that the wrong way, I love her immensly and am over-joyed that she is helping more than we ever thought she could. But she is the one person on earth, other than the other half, that can make me crazy with a look.


Ok, ok, ok. I'll not complain and explain. I am 30, well 31 in 10 days. I have no idea how life un-single works. My soon to be husband has been married twice before. This is absolutely not an issue as I have known him for almost 20 years and he has been my bestest friend for the last 5. He comes in with a beautiful  2 year old little girl, who is our world(when she's here). I've been here since she was born.... This ofcourse makes me the evil step mother and all the fun of the baby-momma. His mother is wonderful. I love the woman!! I know that's a rareity with inlaws. My parents and family love him the same way. We almost seem like the perfect couple, even though we would never set such high albeit false labels for ourselves.


So I guess the best way to ends this is, Here we go!!!! We are 2 average american sweethearts with all the baggage of almost middle age, trying to start a new life TOGETHER. These are the adventures of a (almost) Newly-Wed!!!